ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
To My Children (Collectively)
Mountains of love are still held in reserve for each of you as I take this necessary step toward ensuring your ultimate freedom.
Please forgive me for divulging and making public the persons and events that should have remained private to your lives. However, the magnitude of the problem we face requires that I do as God guides me.
I know that in a normal, healthy family, I would have been able to discuss this with you so that together we could decide how to move forward. But that was not possible.
Forgive me for taking any liberties that may affect your lives in ways I could not have anticipated. I have placed my decisions before the Lord and trust in His infinite wisdom to lead us all to sweet peace and freedom.
The mother–child bond we share has very powerfully been the wind beneath my wings.
Kevin
My child who was also my friend.
Thank you for always being so helpful, capable, thoughtful of others, kind, and cheerful. I am proud of you and pray for your release, so that you may take the many talents and gifts you possess and use them in ways that you choose.
I love you, Kev.
Kelly
A promise is a promise — and I will keep mine to you.
I will never let go, and I will never stop exposing this and seeking help, no matter what.
Thank you for always being so kind and loving. Your gentle nature and the immense love you carry shine through — even beneath the mind control — in ways everyone can feel.
I pray for your release from the programmed state that keeps you hidden from yourself and the world. I miss you deeply and know that God is working powerfully in and through you to bring healing to you and to others.
I love ya.
Danny
My child who walks to the beat of a different drummer.
I wait in great anticipation to see what you will do with the many unique gifts and talents that are yours — yet not yet fully yours.
I grieve the necessary separation that caused you to grow up without a mother at such an early age. I pray that God will restore those years in divine ways.
I love you more than you could ever know.
To the Baby Son Taken from My Arms at Birth
My soul longs for you. I still grieve the immense loss of your physical presence. I have missed you over the years and look forward to our reunion — if it is God’s will.
God has promised the restoration of family, and I look forward to meeting you again, this time as a strong, grown man.
My Parents
Thank you for allowing me passage into the genetic and spiritual structures that would ensure the success of my mission here on Earth.
I love you for birthing me and for allowing me to have the necessary experiences my soul required to learn and fulfill its purpose.
Dad — your ability to be ahead of your time,
Mom — your ability to love unconditionally, even under mind control,
both helped me find my way, ultimately.
I now understand that you were both caught in the same dark web that I, too, found myself in.
I love and forgive you both.
Craig
We never had a chance — but we did love each other through it.
Thank you for your gentle nature and for supporting me in the ways you were able during my recovery.
I forgive you.
Do you forgive me?
My Brothers
As Pop told us:
“May the Truth Set Us All Free.”
Catherine Gould, Ph.D.
What would I have done without you?
Thank you for so many things — first and foremost, for saving my life with that clever safety letter attached to my memory packets. I truly believe it kept me alive.
Your continued support and listening ear gave me the extra strength I needed to trust myself and move forward with this manuscript.
Margie Paul, Ph.D.
Thank you for helping me reconnect with my innate spirituality and my inner child (children) — for holding and loving those little ones within me as I healed.
Thank you for your courage to walk into the fearsome darkness with me, and for your dedication to love — stretching beyond professional boundaries to serve me in the ways I truly needed.
I love you.
